Mind Blogger

Was up whole night watching all sorts of nonsense on Youtube.Then I came across a video called '12 signs of falling in love' and I heard the song that my ex wrote for me.All these time I thought he really wrote a song for me.I thought he was so thoughtful but guess what?That song is from Avant-I want to be close Wow,not only was I cheated after we broke up.He cheated me even when we were together and I trusted him completely.Heck yes I am crying now because as the days pass I begin to find out a lot about him that I didn't see before.I thought he was true to me.I really thought so.. I was so stupid.So stupid to trust him that little bit.Now that I know,I am starting to hate myself even much more because of falling in love with him.I hate myself for believing in him that it was our song.I hate myself for taking so long to move on from him. If it wasn't me staying up tonight and bumping into that song.I would have still thought that he was once true to me.Seriously,...

Tomorrow,I am going to have self control.I will not sit next to my best friend.I will sit next to my brother of a code.I will do that.I will not look at him on purpose and I will not call his name for no reason.I will keep my topics to the most general and I will be funny tomorrow.I will not Not NOt NOT mention that he is my best friends.I WILL NEVER unless he admits that I am his best friend.Then maybe I would mention it again... :P My world is complicated,difficult and miserable.I WILL NOT LET ANY OF THESE HAPPEN TOMORROW. :) Hehehehehe..... Ps: I will say yes to someone before I open my mouth again for anything... :) I PROMISE!

 Anyone believes in happily ever after?I do.That is also a secret. :P I stopped talking about it because my dream happily ever after failed me before and ever since then,I dont talk about it.I don't mention it but I secretly believe it. Secretly,I am very asian because I AM ASIAN. :P I believe that marrying one man takes up a lot of courage and also a lot of responsibility.Marrying a man is also till death will us part.So marriage is not happy sex first then baby responsibility later.I believe that to marry a man,he has to be ready for the challenge of sex and children.I believe children are very important aspects of my life.If I were to marry a man,he must be ready to have children with me. (If you know me really well,I have a lot of theory of life which I don't talk about because it scares people)If he isn't ready,I would give him time to get ready but if he will never be ready and I am getting old then Knock knock,I wont be there. :) I don't believe in the ty...

Friday oh Friday! :D Such a God blessed day.I woke up and all feels so well. :) I slept at about 2.45am yesterday.I was skyping with Jet whole night. :/ We started to skype from 10pm and we finished by 2.45am.Hehe,he may be an asshole sometimes but him and I really have a lot to talk about. :) Not to mention,I am really outgoing :P We talked about Hoong.OMG.... -.- Dear God,Why?!He told me to give him a chance.The problem is,he didnt ask me...HOW TO GIVE?!Yea yea yea,says everyone that thinks we're together.Thing is we're not.Plus I need straight A's for SPM in order to get a scholarship.What if I screw up? :( I am embarrassed also because Jet pointed out that Hoong never agreed that we're best friends.. :( But you know what?Probably Jet just wants to give me an emotional roller coaster.He is always like that. :/ But the problem is,he really got the point. Anyways,perhaps I should stop mentioning the best friend thing or I should just quit hanging around him....

Secretly,I really really like you.My thoughts are controlled by my brain and every time I see you I feel so happy.I forgot about all your imperfections and I am really smiling.That is how much of an impact you do to me. The medulla oblongata is supposed to control me without me knowing about it.But when I see you,I just know that my medulla oblongata isn't controlling me at all.I run out of words to say but I only know your name.That is why I kept on calling your name.I would try to stop doing that but I am just so happy to see you till sometimes I forgot the reason why I called your name. I am not lying but you make me feel so comfortable till sometimes I really forgot that I am Button Wong because Button Wong was never comfortable.She only acts normal...You make me feel like myself. :) Awww.... :) I cant say anything else just that. :) That is my secret :P

Seriously I believe that Jesus is really there in my life.If he wasn't,most probably I would have died.As many of  you know,my mom and I met and accident just last Saturday.My mom hurt her neck muscle and I hit my head.No big injuries and my mom and I are still normal and talking. What happened was,my mom was sending me to tuition and we hit a CRV.It was a chain accident and when the crash happened my mom could not breathe.She was in shock and no matter how scared I was at that time I have to hold it together and calm my mom down.Soon the victims of the other cars came out and start snapping photos.I would walk out but seeing my mom hurt,I couldn't leave her. Those people,being as thoughtless as they can be knocked on the window and ask for everything that I cannot offer to them and finally they just drove off and left me alone to do all the calling and talking.I called my dad to tell him about what happened,then once more to let him know that I am calling the ambulance. ...

Today is truly a God blessed day.I woke up in the morning much more better than before.Realising it is Wednesday and by golly,"I HAVE TUITION TODAY!!"I yelped to myself and with all my sorrowful eyes I prayed and wished that Dad would not realise BUT...my mom just had to remind him "Oi,you got tuition today right?Ivy just texted me.." and I was like -.- With my face and my condition of want to vomit so badly HOW CAN I GO?!I only know I look like a panda.. Then later,at about 3pm.Hoong texted me asking me whether I could come today.I really didnt want to come.My father had to drag me out of the house and I didnt want to let Hoong see me also but then since I miss my friend so much..Even if ugly also I have to see... :P True enough,Hoong was such a nice friend.Not only he sat with an ugly panda but he also sat with the girl who has hit her head and has mild amnesia.He sat with me,talked to me and also laugh with me.Secretly,I want to cry..  :') If i was not ...

I have not been jogging for about 3 days..I feel fat but I cannot help it because even bending down to get something,the back of my head hurts..I have not been to school for two days and I have never wanted to go to school so badly...I miss Von Ah,Kelly,Andrea,Co Cole and Pau pau...(My classmates...) I wonder do they miss me? The one I miss most is Nazierah.I haven't spoken to her for so many days. Haiz... -.- The other sad part is that I have tuition tomorrow and I really don't want to go because Hoong  is going to be there.. :'( How am I going to go there with my ugly face like a lion/monkey/elephant?I want to see him but I don't want him to see my ugly face. :( I may not be pretty but I definitely don't want to be ugly. How??Hoong is going to be scared of me and probably I am going to cry my lungs out because I am so ugly..I don't want to go.... :'( Now,I am starting to blame myself for hitting my head. :( WHAI OH WHAAAI!!! :(

My body is all over and way too sore because yesterday I became a stunt man :D I did activities like rock climbing,flying fox and paintball shooting.Not to mention I did the most and the biggest activity called baby sitting :D If you seen me today,you would be all over and crazy hearing me talk about me being gung ho. :D I climbed the wall by stepping at the rocks at also yelling at myself and telling me that  "I CAN DO THIS" Also,without the help of Nick,I wouldnt have done that too but I am good at this :D You cant deny :P You have to agree! :D But came today,my whole body was so sore and tired.All I want to do is just lie on the floor and close my eyes.So many times I sneaked into my own 5 year old class and lie there like a corpse.Not to mention I can see that he kept on staring at me :D Honestly,his shy personality never fails to attract me. :) So cute and innocent.Not to also mention,he has a hot body now. :) Me so Jelly and attracted to stare at it too. :P kekek...