I am extremely apologetic for the lack of posts. I got a job recently and after that change, I begun to have less and less time with the internet as well as my blog. I initially thought it was possible to blog in my office but it turns out I couldn't so... I finally made time today! APPLAUSE PLEASE!!
During the days of my lack of updates, many things happened. First was, I finally got together with him. I never really thought I would see the day to hear him ask me. I thought things would just die down and I'd forget it. I'll explain in more detail in another post if I am not too exhausted after this entry. Hehehe.
Apart from that, I got a job. I am the Admin Assistant of Brainy Kindergarten. Honestly that job is heck as challenging as ever. Who would have thought an 18 year old could be seeing and doing so many things within just these few days of a new year? I honestly didn't think of my life changing this way.
Heartbreaking news, since the day I gave up on my dream to be a doctor, I have completely lost my direction in life. My issues in life suddenly seemed to rise so badly. It disappoints me because each time I speak to my peers, hearing about their dreams and seeing them getting slightly closer just makes me so small. Partly because I no longer have a dream that I thought I could achieve. In fact, I don't think in anyways it will be possible. Yes its heartbreaking. My mouth speaks of going into business studies because I don't wish take Form 6. I wish there was someone who could help me out because I'm clueless and helpless. Why couldn't time just stop right there? -.- It just makes me feel like crying seeing myself living so pointless and not motivated. For now, the only thing that motivates me is the big bucks. I cannot find any other thing that can give me an aim. I just can't see it. The saddest part is of course when everyone gives you their opinion in life whether what you should and can do. Whats left? You sitting there trying to match yourself with the occupation they paired you up with hoping you can find a match. Why is life so hard when it comes to this part??
Haiz, apart from that, my days of work has been quite good. Considering I have a really nice Manager as well as sweet colleagues. They are not only helpful and nice but also very caring. I consider this job a God bless. :) I do have many things to be thankful for. He is indeed so powerful and so caring. :)
All in all, I suppose life is getting tougher each day so we should also toughen up and start being stronger to carry the responsibility that will be growing each day. Kids, if you're still in school. Enjoy it while you can. Once you enter the phase of confusion like me, you'll find yourself craving to run back into the arms of the teachers and take out your exercise books and start writing whatever your teacher writes on the whiteboard because the real lessons are learnt through experience while experience involves a lot of tears and pride. So while you are still allowed to write down the lessons on the whiteboard, please appreciate every moment of it.
Love,
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During the days of my lack of updates, many things happened. First was, I finally got together with him. I never really thought I would see the day to hear him ask me. I thought things would just die down and I'd forget it. I'll explain in more detail in another post if I am not too exhausted after this entry. Hehehe.
Apart from that, I got a job. I am the Admin Assistant of Brainy Kindergarten. Honestly that job is heck as challenging as ever. Who would have thought an 18 year old could be seeing and doing so many things within just these few days of a new year? I honestly didn't think of my life changing this way.
Heartbreaking news, since the day I gave up on my dream to be a doctor, I have completely lost my direction in life. My issues in life suddenly seemed to rise so badly. It disappoints me because each time I speak to my peers, hearing about their dreams and seeing them getting slightly closer just makes me so small. Partly because I no longer have a dream that I thought I could achieve. In fact, I don't think in anyways it will be possible. Yes its heartbreaking. My mouth speaks of going into business studies because I don't wish take Form 6. I wish there was someone who could help me out because I'm clueless and helpless. Why couldn't time just stop right there? -.- It just makes me feel like crying seeing myself living so pointless and not motivated. For now, the only thing that motivates me is the big bucks. I cannot find any other thing that can give me an aim. I just can't see it. The saddest part is of course when everyone gives you their opinion in life whether what you should and can do. Whats left? You sitting there trying to match yourself with the occupation they paired you up with hoping you can find a match. Why is life so hard when it comes to this part??
Haiz, apart from that, my days of work has been quite good. Considering I have a really nice Manager as well as sweet colleagues. They are not only helpful and nice but also very caring. I consider this job a God bless. :) I do have many things to be thankful for. He is indeed so powerful and so caring. :)
All in all, I suppose life is getting tougher each day so we should also toughen up and start being stronger to carry the responsibility that will be growing each day. Kids, if you're still in school. Enjoy it while you can. Once you enter the phase of confusion like me, you'll find yourself craving to run back into the arms of the teachers and take out your exercise books and start writing whatever your teacher writes on the whiteboard because the real lessons are learnt through experience while experience involves a lot of tears and pride. So while you are still allowed to write down the lessons on the whiteboard, please appreciate every moment of it.
Love,
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