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I am really happy at this moment now and I really want to put this down so I can read this again much later in life when I feel less happy.
From May up till now, it almost felt unreal to have my boyfriend back. It felt as if our relationship was no longer in the internet. It was real again.. We got to hold hands, watch each other during meals and have small talks here and there.
I miss him as soon as he drops me off at my front gate and I'd be waiting for him to return to his home to send me a text.
I am really happy. Today, I feel as if things were sort of meant to be and I really want to keep it that way. I feel like I want to be dependent and grow old with this person. I really want today to be something I can return to much later in life. Today I feel loved. I feel that I am being taken cared of. I feel very special because his love was constant. No mixed signals. It was the same.
All the happiest thing that happens has to somehow come to an end. Or in this case, coming to an end. We have 30 days left together and that thought is such an awful one. I am already imagining how I'd be feeling watching him walk through the departure gate and I don't like it.
He promised another year and I promised to continue to emotionally support him. I promised in another year, I'll go over to see his graduation. Another year means another 365 days. Another year meant we wont be able to have Wednesday date nights. Another year meant we wont be able to have Sunday date outs. Another 365 days of Sunday Skype sessions with no physical contact.
It is agonising and I don't know how long this will take me to get used to again. I don't know what I need to do to feel any less sad by the thought of this.
But just like every sad story comes after a happy story, I know this will also come to past and somehow if things were really meant to be, it will work out. I will do the same, count down to the day that I get to see him again. It wont be easy but I know everything is not easy but we just have to do it.
That, will make me appreciate the 30 days left even more.
Love,
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I am really happy at this moment now and I really want to put this down so I can read this again much later in life when I feel less happy.
From May up till now, it almost felt unreal to have my boyfriend back. It felt as if our relationship was no longer in the internet. It was real again.. We got to hold hands, watch each other during meals and have small talks here and there.
I miss him as soon as he drops me off at my front gate and I'd be waiting for him to return to his home to send me a text.
I am really happy. Today, I feel as if things were sort of meant to be and I really want to keep it that way. I feel like I want to be dependent and grow old with this person. I really want today to be something I can return to much later in life. Today I feel loved. I feel that I am being taken cared of. I feel very special because his love was constant. No mixed signals. It was the same.
All the happiest thing that happens has to somehow come to an end. Or in this case, coming to an end. We have 30 days left together and that thought is such an awful one. I am already imagining how I'd be feeling watching him walk through the departure gate and I don't like it.
He promised another year and I promised to continue to emotionally support him. I promised in another year, I'll go over to see his graduation. Another year means another 365 days. Another year meant we wont be able to have Wednesday date nights. Another year meant we wont be able to have Sunday date outs. Another 365 days of Sunday Skype sessions with no physical contact.
It is agonising and I don't know how long this will take me to get used to again. I don't know what I need to do to feel any less sad by the thought of this.
But just like every sad story comes after a happy story, I know this will also come to past and somehow if things were really meant to be, it will work out. I will do the same, count down to the day that I get to see him again. It wont be easy but I know everything is not easy but we just have to do it.
That, will make me appreciate the 30 days left even more.
Love,
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