The transition.

In life there are so many challenges that we face.So many things in life that have hurt our feelings.Broken a part of us,fixed it and finally made it stronger.The transition will continue until the day we die.I just want to focus on the point where we should really appreciate what life has to offer to us.At least,what God was intending to do for us even the moment that we were conceived.YOU are the blessing that people are talking about.YOU are the reason for many happy people on earth including your parents. :)

Lets begin with my transition.

I was born an 8 pound baby.I was not obese but I was rather to be classified as big built.Even when I entered Standard 1.I was already much much taller than other kids in class but God gave me a very unique character.I am gentle and was often being taken advantaged by other kids in class.I was also quite active both academically and curriculum wise.I represented my school for Story Telling Competitions and Public Speaking as well.By Standard 5,my class teacher lost my report card and accused me for it.I was deeply broken because of that.I was also mentally abused by her.God did not left me to suffer alone.He sent me many many other teachers that loved me a lot in school as well.I suffered a bittersweet two years before graduating.I graduated with 4As and 1B for UPSR and left for Assunta Secondary School. :) Hooray! 

These are my besties during my primary school days.We call ourselves the S-H-I-R.Real close buddies all the way till now.They were the ones that were with me throughout my whole 12 years in school.Eat,sleep,talk and cry together. :) 

In Assunta Seconday School,I met a couple of amazing people in Form 1.I was in 1 Anggerik 3.I had a fairly good year in school because I was nominated to be a prefect after 6 months in school.I should say I am a well behaved child in school.You know what they always say,an angel in school is a devil at home. :P Still life was not easy.I went through episodes of people trying to hurt your feelings and knock down your self esteem.I am to be blamed as well..But in general,things were great and I loved the school in spite of the challenges I face.

By Form 3,I met a guy form the school next to mine.I fell deeply in love with him even though I knew my parents would not agree to it no matter how.We went to the same tuition and we would spend most of our time in the library studying while staring into each others eyes.I thought my story of happily ever after was really happening. :) I was really really happy and of course,my heart was taken away by that fine young man who captures my attention.We studied together and I thought my dreams would really come true. :) We even got rings for each other. :)

My happiness turned into long long sufferings when he told me that he was losing feelings for me.I was so sad and so broken.Everything felt as if it was knocked down.Everything was empty and broken.I persevered for another 2 weeks and finally I gave up.I broke down so many times till I lost count.I broke up right after my PMR exam ended.During my PMR examination,I slept and cried through it all.But God was still there for me.In spite of all that,I obtained 5As and 2Bs.I wouldn't expect much because I never gotten straight As anyways.What more when I was so vulnerable?So there ends my love story.

Life went on even after all those tragic baby moments.I moved on to Form 4 and entered the Science Stream.Form 4 was probably the year where I regretted and hated myself for everything that I have done the year before.I was placed in the last science class in the whole Form 4.I was not stupid and I did not fail my science and maths for PMR.Why was I placed there?From then I realised how much I have missed from my break up.It was not just my feelings but it was also affecting my school academics.I was down once again and I blamed my PMR results and of course my relationship that has caused me to be this way.There was nothing I could do about it but to accept it.I realised how much I was lacking in Add Maths when I did my Form 4 examinations.I was struggling so hard and it was not just me alone but everyone around me.That was the time,I figured that the class really does not matter.What matters was the individual herself.So I struggled and struggled till the end of the year where I finally passed my Add Maths.Yay! :) Things started going well since then. :)

I think as our life continues to move on,I believe each one of us should really appreciate what God has to offer to us.What is the point of living if you are not in anyways interested to live well?All the challenges that I have faced over the years have brought me somewhere and that somewhere is where God moulded me to become a better person,a stronger and more decisive person.Things would have been very much different if I didn't face those challenges in life.

In conclusion,just love life and keep living it. :) Keep believing that tomorrow will be a better day because all that matters now might not even matter to you in time to come.You eventually forgive and forget because you are so tired of being angry at it.Smile and think of this as your transition because it will eventually move on just like everyone else. :)

Love,

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