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Fitting in. Something I found the hardest to do when I was in my youth days. I remember days when I tried so hard finding a position where I can fit in and feel at home. Yes, those were the days when YC was one of my priorities in life but yet I was challenged in so many ways. Not only did I not feel at home, I felt afraid and most of the time upset because I find people rather much unfriendly. That was how I felt when I try to make friends with people there. I begin to feel as if I was just like the weed growing on the side walk. I feel as if I do not make much of a difference even if I am there or not. My presence is not appreciated. I can't find room for myself to serve because my mind is so filled with insecurities and incompetence. I cannot find confidence in myself and I feel smaller and smaller each time I hear people speak of the things they have done for God. I was blaming everything including myself because I held to that one deadly phrase " I WAS NOT GIVEN THE OP...

People grow up when they are placed in difficult situations where they are forced to accept reality. It it true based on personal experiences because you can dream all you want but when it comes to making that dream come true, its a whole different level. :) You can be so passionate about so many things, but you're only able to do this much. Big slap of reality I suppose? :)  So, it hasn't been too long since the new year came by and resolutions should be made in order for you to stay focus. So what's your new year's resolution?  My new year's resolution this year is : -  Find a part time job and save up as much as I can.  I hope that I can earn enough to pay for my college expenses and book fees. -.- I was wondering where did I come up with such a stupid but genius idea. :) But heck this idea did get me to focus and start working hard again. Enough of plays. Time to get up and work.  Go for college and work hard I consider myself being ver...

Guilty pleasures 101.. Omaikott, felt like it was just yesterday. (It was literally yesterday -.- )  Happy 18th Birthday to myself? This birthday has been a crazy awesome adventure and of course very special. In spite of all the challenges I have faced and still facing, I consider my life as very rewarding because things do really work I guess? How sweet was he to actually spend the 14th with me and celebrate it? :) Of course it wasn't much but it was this much that means quite a little something something maybe?  :D Yes, he's my best guy friend and honestly I never really expect so much to be happening within this short period of time. From the day he expressed himself to me, to the day he cannot decide what he wants and finally the day he understands what he wants and seizes the day just makes everything so urrrrghh at the beginning and finally "okay" I'm usually really good at expressing myself but when it came to this it just took away my ability in ...

Omai, hello people! :) Its been a looooooooong time since I actually blogged for real on what happened in my daily life. I'm sorry, there were many things that happened lately. Good and bad while some moderate and normal things but hey, life is never perfect. It always has its ups and downs right? Each obstacle could be tougher than before but we will get stronger and stronger. So you'll be wondering what did I do on my last day of 2013. Yes, I will share with you now :)) On the very special 31st of December, I didn't do anything. Hahah! I'm kidding. I was in church. I was the sound operator for the night with the rest of the crew and my sifu (teacher) :) As miserable as it sounds, I'm spending my second year alone for Thanksgiving. The service was really fun because there were unexpectedly so many people in church. Of course, not to mention the church was so amazing, providing us with refreshments like 'yee mai tong sui' ( barley drink) and 'yao...

Sometimes life is just never fair. You want to love but you are afraid of the pain. You want to be happy but you're afraid of the tears. You want me but you are afraid of being wrong. How unfair is that? Knowing you has been the greatest pleasure of my life because you're one of a kind. You're shy but patient. You're quiet but positive. You're in solitude but you're happy. You're everything that is good to me except you are a coward. I'm sorry I called you a coward but its true. You are lack of courage to do or to endure dangerous things. Most of all, you are hanging me on a tree. But calling you a coward is yet unfair as well because I am one too. I have the power to snap the string you tied on me but I do not have the courage to do so. I have the power to step away from you but I'm too afraid to leave. I have my principles ringing loudly for me to leave but I couldn't bring myself to go. I have all the reasons but yet I stayed. I gave you tha...