Mind Blogger

I always believed that if we compare ourselves with others, we will get better. We will improve and we will be one step higher than before because we know where we stand now.  As much as I believe so, I often get so depressed with my performance. Not because I didn't do well but because I didn't do well enough to be better than others. I often question myself on why can't I be the best? Why must I always be the second best? The thought runs through my head over and over again causing me to feel sulky while some moments later, I would try to convince myself that I shouldn't be this way. Many people tell me "You are working with your strength. You need to have God with you in order to succeed. " I do agree and I am guilty of many things in my relationship with Him. There are times where people tell me "You are not the best because it is not your time yet. " Now the question is, when is my time going to come? When will I succeed? When will I be wh...

Second week of college is almost coming to an end. A feedback you ask? Yes, college life is fun but the changes are rather dramatic. :/ I ain't kidding. It really is. -.- Assignments, group work, presentation, baking and ect ect.. Oh God, paper,pen, a whiteboard and a teacher with a marker pen suddenly sounds so much better. I love college life but I find myself rather losing time for myself. The moment I open my eyes, I head for college, I go for lectures, then return home. I take a nap, get up and stuff myself with food, study my notes then finally close my eyes. Then the next day its the same routine all over again. BUT! That doesn't mean I didn't get to enjoy myself. I did. I made a couple of really cute friends along the way and they made me feel at home. :) I am actually beyond glad. Hehehe not to mention we're all quite crazy. You know.. Crazy is my cup of tea. :P Another issue I face is, NOT ENOUGH CLOTHES TO WEAR.  Yes, I believe that will piss off the ...

Heyyyyyyy..... Hehe sorry, I just needed to make it this long because I've been actually more than lazy. The book reviews will be taking a little longer than usual. Also I missed the BBW sale. Okay okay, enough of out of topic talks. My first day of college life.. Academically, I find everything still bearable. Its not too much pain on my butt but I'm anticipating some exciting assignments that can literally fry my brain. Haha! Yeap, quite high expectation on the assignments but for the classes for now.. Its quite bearable. :P But then again, you can't really judge the level of how bearable it is until you take the exams right? You might find it bearable in class but fail terribly in exams.. Whoops? Not gonna jinx it. Hahah! I have made a couple of friends in college. Yes, Assunta has truly provided me a good amount of socializing skills. The introvert here at least knows how to make friends and make use of her wit to capture people's attention. Yea, at least ri...

Finally the day has arrived. My college days, my grown up days. I could only bring myself to do this post now because I figured finally, finally there wont be anymore delays. Finally its my turn to grow up. Dad enrolled me to INTI KL just not too long ago. The feeling of having your parents there with you to PAY for your school fees just feels like a whole baggage of responsibility being placed on my shoulders. "So now its no more game play my child, " says Papa Wong. So it is really true. The bigger you are, the slower you walk because first, responsibility is holding you down. Second, you need to walk wisely because people behind you are looking at you. So today, Papa Wong brought me over to take the train. Its quite a challenge I should say but at the same time the responsibility just gets heavier. The responsibility to carry myself well as a person, the responsibility to take good care of myself, the responsibility towards my studies and most of all, the responsibilit...