Mind Blogger

Hey hey hey.... :D Spend my whole day cleaning up my room, watching movies and thinking. Yes, I multitask and I'll give you a bonus, I didn't really sleep the night before. Simply because I am worried and a little afraid of moving forward. Standing at this position right now, I am beginning my degree this coming Monday. I still have the stand to move over to Hertfordshire to finish my last year but the best part is that financially things have not been settled in for that one year in that foreign land. However, financially it is almost ready, set and running for complete local studies. I'm really afraid. Watching myself grow up day by day physically but mentally I am still quite unwilling to move forward. I spent my whole day spring cleaning my room today just to sort things out, manage my mind and get myself ready for 3 years of patience. 3 years is not too long but not short either and I am so afraid I will screw things up. In my mind, I keep asking myself if I am...

Hey all, I've been away I know but I cannot sleep so, I was thinking I could spend some time evaluating myself because at the end of the day writing really does help a person grow. I've been dating the same guy for approximately 1 year and 2 months. I love him very much and I know I am in love with him because of the way I am feeling right now. Loving someone is so hard. I don't deny. There's a phase where I only cared about myself. Then there's a phase where I cared so much about him and finally there's another phase where I can't bear to even stop thinking about him. Staring at my phone every single time is bad because I am waiting and waiting for a reply. Each time I wait I am in fear because those waiting seemed so familiar. Okay forget about it. Let's just focus on the part where I don't like waiting. Because in that duration of waiting, you feel less important and less of a priority. It hurts you very much because you know there is no...