Mind Blogger

I used to love too quickly.I cross the line too quickly but now,I am going to give more time and draw the line much more visibly. :) I love you but I will take us slow so that I don't get into you too much.I love you but I still need my fair share of messing around with other friends.I cannot be the subset of you.I own this one set.You,infact can be the subset of me. ;) Love me,think of me and miss me.I know you do but I don't want to hurt myself too often.I already have many scars.I cannot trust you completely,I cannot love you to the fullest.Not because I cannot due to my history.I can and I would love to but I wont because I don't want to love too much and bleed too much. Just try to understand me.I love you as much as you do but actions speaks very much louder than words.

My day today was really bad.I cried 1 hour 15 minutes before school was over and then I will have to face more shit tomorrow.I don't know what is going to happen but seriously,today is bad enough.I hate almost everything about today except the 2 hours I spent with him. Today someone asked if I was with him.I answered that we're just friends.This honestly is such a hard thing to say because I really wished I was not asked but I had to say it anyways.I enjoyed my company with him today.As usual,I am happy for that moment just being friends and talking about almost everything. We listened to a song which I really wish that he would pay attention to the lyrics.Haiz,Except you know he wont. I am running into boys these days.Boys really like me and they care about me.Maybe this is another sign to move on.Stop liking a boy who don't even know you like him. So now,Its one step at a time.By the time I graduate,I must be able to keep in touch with him and also still be his fr...

I have been a person with plans all my life.I always plan what I will be facing tomorrow.I am this huge fan of of this word called consequently.It always goes like when you don't do something.Consequently,you will not have the results.Thus,I always have plans. The question today will be,If I am dying tomorrow how will I be spending my today? My last relationship,I had the plan where I would go to church and get married to him because I really loved him.I had the plans where we do everything that we might not get to do in the future.(You know what I mean :PP)Yea,those were my plans. When I broke up,I was rebellious.My plans were just to spend my time with my family and just head out there and do what I might/will never be able to do.I planned to just go all out.Flirt as much as I can or perhaps..Finally,on the last minute I will let my ex know how much I missed him.Well you get the idea. When I have a guy best friend where I can share everything with.My plans were that I wou...

The whole morning of my Saturday,I spent it on the bed cuddling with my pillow imagining prince charming lying next to me feeling my forehead asking if I was okay.Yea,I know I am weird.I am lack of love lately.I mean the mushy kind of love where you have someone who cares about you so much.Yeap,I am lack of that. :PP Sharp 11.55 am,Stereotypes-Hello was singing from my phone.Sister called me up for lunch.Dragged myself up from the feverish and imaginative me,I said good bye to my prince charming and yes,he was asking me to go back to bed with him but I went out to brush my teeth and start my day. Did I mention that I often talk to non moving objects?Yea,I kicked the door by accident and I yelled at it like it was going to apologize to me.Such a dumbo.. :/ Went out for lunch with my parents and I saw this really sad little girl.Probably about 6-7 years old.She was crying out so loud and first I thought she was just naughty.But later on,I overheard that she was crying because she r...

If I knew I were to fall, I will run as far as possible from you. If I knew that your thoughts were far more closer to catch me, I will run to the furthest part of earth from you. If I knew that time will bring us closer then further away from each other, I will run to stop time, Spend my every second with you, Then run for my life. If only I knew, I will never let your thoughts run into mine, I will never let myself think of you. If only I knew.

If there is one thing in my life that I hate,it will be jersey hunting.I so hate typing onto Google on the prices and then finding that they are cheap because they are not original.I hate that I like my best friend that I am typing this over and over again hoping that I will find the real thing. No I dont hate the fact that I like my best friend.In fact,I am so worried that once I get the jersey for him I will have to leave him.I like him too much to hate him. -.- Just ranting. Haiz,I still havent found the price yet and so I heard that it is 200++ for the original.I am so poor now.I am like far from 200 bucks what more the ++. I really don't want to get a cheap shit for him. :/ What if I cannot?! :(

It has been a long while since I blogged before.I guessed I was just way beyond happy these days huh? :) I like someone and honestly I am not proud of it.He is my best friend and it will usually not be something bad but I cherish our friendship so much and I really wished I didn't like him.There are so many thoughts running in my head telling me to run away because this is really not a good sign.Every time I see him,I am happy and I casually tell him things without thinking. In fact I didn't exactly knew that I like him because I feel so comfortable with him.I talk about him,think about him and even sing with him.The things we talk about is endless and the best part of our friendship is that he knows me even without me telling him. Today,my friend asked him directly and he said no.I should have known that he don't feel the same way because in a way I was taking advantage of his innocence.In a way I should not have allowed that question to be raised but I did anyways a...