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Today is just exceptionally lazy.I don't know how I end up being so lazy.I woke up,went to the market with my mom,came home slept.Woke up,took a bath then went back to sleep again.I guess this is the day that I am extremely unproductive and sleepy. :) Heheheh So today not much to blog just sleepy and deep thinking. :) Those deep thinking is not enough to be a post long but just enough to linger in my mind. :) Heheheh I guess that is all? :) Bye!

Today is probably the most stuffed and fat day of my life.I went to Seoul Garden for the first time with my family to eat.After camp,today is probably the first day of year 2012 I say I am very blessed.Truly today I find that I am very blessed.While I was eating there I was thinking of the little things each one of my family member did for me. My sister,Phoebie is the knot of the family.She brings everyone together.In spite of financial needs,she still love each one of us in the family.She would sacrifice her time and plans just to send me to places that I want to go.She is the reason that I am in Seoul Garden today.She is the God given gift to me. :) It is a lot to talk about her so lets move on. :) Debbie,my elder sister.Probably the sister whom I remember most in my childhood.Cutting my fingernails,bathing me,tying my hair and dressing me up.She is the perfect one in the family.Though I cannot remember what she has done for me in my current teenage years but I will never forget ...

Right now when I am looking at my friends,I see so many happy endings.That is the worst part because I am so jealous of their happy endings. Today as I was jogging I was thinking of my life.Reflecting upon myself and thinking of the reason I am still alive.What does God have for me in the 20-30 years to come before I meet Him face to face in heaven?I was thinking of the decisions I have made so far in my life and how it would have varied if I decided the other way.Soon I realised my results would have been the same because each time I decide between two or more things,one would have benefited while the other would have been hurt.So in a way,no matter how I regretted my past it would have still be the same just a different story but the ending would have been the same. I always believed if I cannot contribute to other's happy ending,the least I can do is not ruin other's thought of a happy ending.Since each one of us are trying to achieve a happy ending in our lives why on ...

Its so gross but its true.This is happening. :) I just came home from a jog.I met Zkay but I didn't say hi because I was jogging.Right now,my head ache is pretty bad and my fringe looks horrible. I wont write much now because things are boring today except babysitting.That is kind of awesome.I think I'll be a great house wife don't you think?I have this weird thought in my head today which I will blog about it in a while when my head stop spinning. :) For now,I'll just go take a bath. :) Bye!

This is probably the song that is pinned in my heart because that is the moment I felt the works of God in my life.I didn't get to share in camp but I am sure it doesn't matter because Jesus knows my heart.This probably is going to sound so weird to other people but God has really changed my life,vision and perspective. It is going to be a long post so bear with me. :) Life being a Christian for God is difficult.My journey was full of obstacles and pain.I fail certain subjects and I begun to lose hope in God.I see the people in church faking their relationship with God,I got more and more discouraged.Soon I came up with the conclusion that being slained is a form of peer pressure or something you might call a trend. I knew there was something really wrong with me then but I wasn't given the answers that I seek.I followed the trend just like others.Signed up as a Children's camp helper and do my duty as a Christian.I believed it is the least I can do for myself a...

Its about 5.30am in the morning and I am awake because I was so tired yesterday so I slept at 9. :)) About yesterday's deco I kinda worked hard as usual.I climbed and I nail and I poke through holes and stuff.Its crazy but I still did it.I was so tired later on I even talked on my sleep journey home. :( Malu la... My mom bought me a new battery for my phone. :) yay!Now I wont have to bring my charger everywhere I go. :) Kekekeke... I don't know but I think in a few hours I will have to go to camp.I woke up when I realised I have not completely finish packing.Haiz.. Haiz...Days like military wake up early and go to sleep late will happen soon. :) Anyways I talk to you soon okay? :)  kk bye! :D

I cannot sleep.I rolled on the bed from 3.25 am till now. Probably going to hate the day later. Soooooo.... Have you ever been on a roller coaster?Have you ever felt so scared yet you still want to take that risk?That is how I am feeling now.I don't know how to relate but that is exactly how I am feeling now.Hence,I cannot sleep. Have you ever got stuck to decide between two chairs?Don't you have the urge to sit on both of them one after another?That is exactly how I am feeling right now.I want to sit on both chairs but I am scared I fall. Have you ever run a 5 kilometer race and figure out you are the last on in the line?I feel like I am behind many things. Have you ever listen to a song over and over again and not get bored of it?That is what I am doing now. No,I am not pathetic,I just cannot sleep that is all... :)

I have so many.I don't know whether is it just me,but puberty provide me with a courage of a bull.I can remember all my crushes clearly but I always cannot remember why I like them.Like I said,puberty. So recently one guy whom I used to have a crush on during puberty got back into contact.He texted me and we talk.It wasn't so much of a big deal for me at the beginning so I didn't blog about it.Just earlier tonight,he confessed his feelings for me through a text message from Australia to Malaysia.Personally,I am not a fan of confessing feelings through text.I think its too casual and it shows no sincerity. So he told me that he likes me.When I questioned why,he came up with a story saying that he has no confident to express earlier and he wishes 1000 times infinity to turn back time and to ask me out.Personally if you ask for my opinion,I think its not true and he is just making up something to impress me.There is a story behind it but no point talking about it because i...

Today,I rocked on with my fringe to church..Yes,I am self conscious.I tied two pony tail and head out to children's ministry and saw the youth.I miss the youth actually but at the same time,I have other important things to do so I left.Which is a good idea,at least I am improving. The camp briefing today ended pretty late and it pretty much contributed more problem to second service.I mean,finally one day Button Wong has admitted that she is very blur and stupid.The piano monitors were making noise and I don't know what to do.Can you imagine having Pastor Jay to help me out then Andy coming to do it as well?For a moment I felt as if I am so stupid I can sweep the streets with my hair. :( But even with their help,the problem was not solved,so I tried to make myself feel better saying that it was a difficult thing.(but to me,as long as you can't fix it,you're still blur) The camp briefing today was also hilarious,the parents have so many questions to ask.I can underst...

I finally got my long fringe cut short. :) Its been a long time since I have my short cute japanese fringe.I still remember how difficult it was to keep it long.I had itchy eyes and I have to pin it up everyday until it grew and yet today I have it cut short again. :) Donno what to blog about but everything seems normal today.Camp is around the corner and no doubt,I am so lazy to even plan what I must pack.I have problem I guess :P I cut my hair today anticipating a good thing to happen this year. :) I hope good things happen :D KK bye :)