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Childhood Crushes

I have so many.I don't know whether is it just me,but puberty provide me with a courage of a bull.I can remember all my crushes clearly but I always cannot remember why I like them.Like I said,puberty.

So recently one guy whom I used to have a crush on during puberty got back into contact.He texted me and we talk.It wasn't so much of a big deal for me at the beginning so I didn't blog about it.Just earlier tonight,he confessed his feelings for me through a text message from Australia to Malaysia.Personally,I am not a fan of confessing feelings through text.I think its too casual and it shows no sincerity.

So he told me that he likes me.When I questioned why,he came up with a story saying that he has no confident to express earlier and he wishes 1000 times infinity to turn back time and to ask me out.Personally if you ask for my opinion,I think its not true and he is just making up something to impress me.There is a story behind it but no point talking about it because it already sounds dumb to me.

I am not stupid and definitely not as forgetful as you may think.I can remember so clearly how he told me that he liked another girl back then.Say he is so afraid to tell her.I can even remember the name,Beatrice. (Not my Bea,its another Beatrice) He is telling me that he liked me even before?Sounded like a joke to me but I didn't want to question him further because I know it is no point.

Let's just give him a positive reason for saying that to me.Maybe he likes me now but don't know how to explain why.Yes,you may find me interesting.I wont deny,I am interesting.So I wont even push on further for the truth when I almost have the truth.

He is waiting for an answer and what do I say?I don't mind the lying because he might want to sound more sincere to me.Honestly,I don't know what to say.I enjoy his company.The late night texting is great.But to get into a relationship with him.I'll consider and I will consider hard.

I already have a little flaw of a mistake I made over the years.I really don't want to make it one more time and have another flaw.As much as I cannot avoid,I will try my best not to.

To me,I liked him during puberty.I liked him so much DURING puberty.But now,puberty is over and I look at him just like how I look at other guys.He is not a bad person and it is not the face factor that I am not satisfied with.

I understand that relationships come hand in hand with time.So I told him to get to know me first.Actually there is nothing to know about me,I am pretty transparent.I say that just to buy myself some time to decide to be lonely or to say a yes that you already know it is a mistake.

Again,the post is too long. :) eheheh kk bye :)

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