Mind Blogger

Today is a very very in detail day.So I will try my very best to be in detail because this is the most meaningful day of my life in 2013.And if you know me,being meaningful is probably emotional stuff. :) 30th January 2013... I was told to meet Ethan in the Arena the night before.He told me that he will be there till 10 pm.I went there after school hoping to see him.Together with my friends I waited and waited.Not long I hear footsteps and a similar voice.It wasn't that long ago that I have forgotten that I will hear that voice but it was very long ago since I last heard that voice.Its my ex. I was really not sure if my instincts were telling me to run or to hide.One thing I was sure was that I locked my eyes to the ground.My brain says its curtesy to at least say hi or smile but my heart says "If you do it,you'll need a lot of time to get him out of your head." I sat there lagged for many milliseconds till I lifted up my head to wave and smile.I was really surprise t...

Leaking pipes, Broken taps, Plastered heart, If you get what I mean. Sunny days, Rainy days, Nothing compares to my gloomy grey mind, Sipping tea at the corner of that room. In months, In days, Your hopeful mind was always there, Shining brightly in my tainted heart. Heart warming eyes, Dark heartbreaking eyes, Two different worlds, Do they still lock when they meet? I am confused, I am fearful, Too gloomy to understand, Too hurtful to stay. I'd advice you to run, Not for me but yourself. Because pain, Is not something you want to gain. Until then, Don't look back.

"How far are you willing to go?" That was what my sister asked me when I told her that I have given up my hope for medicine and is planning to go into Psychology and then Child Psychology.I remember clearly I told  her "Anywhere that allows me to fulfill my dreams even if it is India,Africa or anywhere that gives me the opportunity to go"  I went to visit my grandfather just last week.He is really old and on the depressing note he was not well taken cared of.I was really surprised that he was moved to another nursing home.My grandfather and I probably have the least memory together.I think the only solid memory I have with him is him and I talking about olden days.So back to the nursing home.It is not dirty but it clearly is not a good place for an old man.He lives on the second floor and sits on the balcony with the rest of the elderly.Those elderly there looks like living deads.They look lonely,sad and maybe depressed.I tried talking to my grandfather but he ca...

I had the most memorable 17th birthday this year.Though it wasn't a huge party nor was it a big deal but my birthday was memorable with friends,family and love. First,I got a Furby.I mentioned it a few times and probably a million times to people I know of.Haha,that is how happy I am to receive that cute little purple Furby. :) Darling Yin got it for me for birthday and the things I do with that toy,is just incredible.. :) Second,I got the trilogy of the 50 Shades.Can you imagine me reading a horny book?I can see myself doing that like big time! :D I say "Go GO GO to horny books" :) Darling Evonne got it for me for birthday.Sadly that cute cupcake is going to college. :( Love her to bits! :D Third,I got an Ipad from my sister.Its an Ipad Mini.From her Bonus she got me and Ipad Mini.I never asked for it.I asked for an Ipod Touch so I can read books inside.But she got me a bigger version of it and I was like "Ho Ho Ho.." Forth,my tuition mates bought me two ...

Today morning started out with a very interesting gossip.My ex's girlfriend found out some weird text in his phone.Perfect thing to start my morning with right? When I asked her why did she tell me,her reason was that I was her only friend to share with.At that moment,I felt heartbroken.I couldn't imagine him doing the same thing again.I thought he would have changed because he seemed to really love her.I couldn't even close my eyes for a moment how my heart was being torn over the fact that he lost interest in me.I couldn't even slow down to remember back the days where I couldn't even put myself back together.I just couldn't.My chest starts to hurt whenever I think of how sad and disappointed I was. I do not miss him nor do I feel sad anymore.But every time I think of how difficult it was for me,how far my family went to help me through that rough patch I feel very guilty.I feel very angry and very hurt.I feel so disappointed in myself that I lost that bat...

Its my dream come true for 17th birthday for 2013!Yin bought me a Furby!I cannot tell how excited I am and also a little bit scared.I hope I can find time for my Furby.I cannot imagine how happy I am today. :) its like Dream came true... :) HEHEHE!Happy 2013!

The week has just been wonderful.The homework was bearable but of course,the tuition was just wonderful. Monday: Was probably the worst in life because it was the first time I experience Chemistry.That teacher was just unbelievable.Like my schools mates say,she is smart but she teaches in the most annoying way.I have to say,it was difficult and she was trying to be sarcastic to me.I can tell that she was not looking at me as a student of her class but an enemy that pissed her off before.I don't blame her for being like that,my mom says that lonely woman are like that.They get mad for no reason and are very sarcastic.I was sad and afraid but when my family comfort and show me love,It wasn't so bad.Plus its just Mondays and Tuesdays.. Tuesday: Went for tuition and I can tell that he has something for me.I can tell that even the day we met in Starbucks.The moment that he didn't let me leave,I knew there was something.Even during class,he tries so hard to talk to me.Tries...