Today morning started out with a very interesting gossip.My ex's girlfriend found out some weird text in his phone.Perfect thing to start my morning with right?
When I asked her why did she tell me,her reason was that I was her only friend to share with.At that moment,I felt heartbroken.I couldn't imagine him doing the same thing again.I thought he would have changed because he seemed to really love her.I couldn't even close my eyes for a moment how my heart was being torn over the fact that he lost interest in me.I couldn't even slow down to remember back the days where I couldn't even put myself back together.I just couldn't.My chest starts to hurt whenever I think of how sad and disappointed I was.
I do not miss him nor do I feel sad anymore.But every time I think of how difficult it was for me,how far my family went to help me through that rough patch I feel very guilty.I feel very angry and very hurt.I feel so disappointed in myself that I lost that battle of love to myself.I lost that reason in me to live at that moment.
Now that it happened to her,I hope that he was just playing a truff on her and that he would not do such a thing.I might have been really angry at him at some point but as soon as time passes,I got tired.I sincerely hope he would change.More people will get hurt if he don't change.
Okay I am lying,More people will kick his balls if he continues..
Ps:I have been busy throughout the whole week,But I do have loads of things to share :)
When I asked her why did she tell me,her reason was that I was her only friend to share with.At that moment,I felt heartbroken.I couldn't imagine him doing the same thing again.I thought he would have changed because he seemed to really love her.I couldn't even close my eyes for a moment how my heart was being torn over the fact that he lost interest in me.I couldn't even slow down to remember back the days where I couldn't even put myself back together.I just couldn't.My chest starts to hurt whenever I think of how sad and disappointed I was.
I do not miss him nor do I feel sad anymore.But every time I think of how difficult it was for me,how far my family went to help me through that rough patch I feel very guilty.I feel very angry and very hurt.I feel so disappointed in myself that I lost that battle of love to myself.I lost that reason in me to live at that moment.
Now that it happened to her,I hope that he was just playing a truff on her and that he would not do such a thing.I might have been really angry at him at some point but as soon as time passes,I got tired.I sincerely hope he would change.More people will get hurt if he don't change.
Okay I am lying,More people will kick his balls if he continues..
Ps:I have been busy throughout the whole week,But I do have loads of things to share :)
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