Today, one of the most mad and crazy matter occurred in my life which have not occurred for a very long time. Prolly, I was very disturbed with it. Which brings me why I am blogging on an exam week because again, I had a mental fight with myself again. Oh, its not enough because that incident happened 2-3 minutes before my English exam begun. How wonderful right? :)
If I am not mistaken, I think I have mentioned on a couple of previous posts about my mad Chemistry teacher in school who has a very strong opinion and a horrible mouth towards her students in class. Not to bad mouth her but multiple times she branded us as 'Bodoh Sombong' which means stupid but proud. I wouldn't deny that because what kind of teenager in the world wouldn't proud and stupid at the same time? That's how the cycle goes right?
Stupid + Proud = Mistakes (Teenagers)
Mistakes + Time = Experience (Adults)
Experience + Time + Proud = Old (Elderly)
Now back to my teacher, today she barged into the class room and made us all picked up trash from the floor. Nothing wrong with it because we should be doing that anyways. :) It was only right to picked them up. Gladly everyone picked up their trash and so did I. Upon finishing my duty as a student I walked back to my seat. Unknowingly I passed by her. Sounded like an averagely normal thing to me until...
"This girl ah, really have no manners. Teacher is standing her she just passed by and cannot use another way wan.. "
On an average Thursday and also on almost everyday, I thought I shouldn't just keep quiet because maybe she was a little bit more disturbed by small matters or maybe it was PMS or maybe she had a row with her husband or many other more factors for her to be a little bit out of her mind. So, courteously I apologized, " I am so sorry." Not to my knowing did she not feel much better she verbally took out her shot gun and shot me straight on the face. KAPOW!
"NO! YOU'RE NOT SORRY! You're always like that. Apologize. I have seen you many times being this way! No manners! "
Shocked and angry I supposed I was forced to keep quiet. I sat there on my seat watching her rage in anger just because I walked passed her. The more I thought about it the more angry I got. I thought to myself, Malaysian population of 29 million people, am I supposed to walk another way each time I see a person standing in my way? If I am driving on the road, am I supposed to drive another road just because there are cars on the road? The more I thought about it, the more I feel myself heating up. I probably burnt so many calories within just that few minutes. At that same time, I thought to myself if I have no manners do you have it? What kind of manners do you have when you simply say things to hurt your students? What kind of character are you trying to portrait to your future generations? What kind of Malaysian are you if you consider and apology rude? Are you rude yourself? What kind of moral do you have? What world are you living in and how come people would still hire someone like you? Possibly if my gut was stronger than mind I would have thrown all those questions to her. I wanted to cry but then my mind controls my every move.
God, why me? What is this supposed to be? How come so many people in the world are living at the same time but you constantly put me in difficult situations where people constantly say things to affect me in various ways? Is there something wrong with me or you are putting me in times like this for the sake of having fun seeing me suffer? What am I supposed to say? Or every single word I say is trouble? How come my life is constantly filled with all these? When are you going to make me worthy to be respected? When in the world will I ever be respected or am I supposed to find respect myself? Why must the meek inherit the earth? I hate being treated this way. Would it be different if I had fought back? Would things have changed if I had been a different person? Would life had been better?
If I am not mistaken, I think I have mentioned on a couple of previous posts about my mad Chemistry teacher in school who has a very strong opinion and a horrible mouth towards her students in class. Not to bad mouth her but multiple times she branded us as 'Bodoh Sombong' which means stupid but proud. I wouldn't deny that because what kind of teenager in the world wouldn't proud and stupid at the same time? That's how the cycle goes right?
Stupid + Proud = Mistakes (Teenagers)
Mistakes + Time = Experience (Adults)
Experience + Time + Proud = Old (Elderly)
Now back to my teacher, today she barged into the class room and made us all picked up trash from the floor. Nothing wrong with it because we should be doing that anyways. :) It was only right to picked them up. Gladly everyone picked up their trash and so did I. Upon finishing my duty as a student I walked back to my seat. Unknowingly I passed by her. Sounded like an averagely normal thing to me until...
"This girl ah, really have no manners. Teacher is standing her she just passed by and cannot use another way wan.. "
On an average Thursday and also on almost everyday, I thought I shouldn't just keep quiet because maybe she was a little bit more disturbed by small matters or maybe it was PMS or maybe she had a row with her husband or many other more factors for her to be a little bit out of her mind. So, courteously I apologized, " I am so sorry." Not to my knowing did she not feel much better she verbally took out her shot gun and shot me straight on the face. KAPOW!
"NO! YOU'RE NOT SORRY! You're always like that. Apologize. I have seen you many times being this way! No manners! "
Shocked and angry I supposed I was forced to keep quiet. I sat there on my seat watching her rage in anger just because I walked passed her. The more I thought about it the more angry I got. I thought to myself, Malaysian population of 29 million people, am I supposed to walk another way each time I see a person standing in my way? If I am driving on the road, am I supposed to drive another road just because there are cars on the road? The more I thought about it, the more I feel myself heating up. I probably burnt so many calories within just that few minutes. At that same time, I thought to myself if I have no manners do you have it? What kind of manners do you have when you simply say things to hurt your students? What kind of character are you trying to portrait to your future generations? What kind of Malaysian are you if you consider and apology rude? Are you rude yourself? What kind of moral do you have? What world are you living in and how come people would still hire someone like you? Possibly if my gut was stronger than mind I would have thrown all those questions to her. I wanted to cry but then my mind controls my every move.
God, why me? What is this supposed to be? How come so many people in the world are living at the same time but you constantly put me in difficult situations where people constantly say things to affect me in various ways? Is there something wrong with me or you are putting me in times like this for the sake of having fun seeing me suffer? What am I supposed to say? Or every single word I say is trouble? How come my life is constantly filled with all these? When are you going to make me worthy to be respected? When in the world will I ever be respected or am I supposed to find respect myself? Why must the meek inherit the earth? I hate being treated this way. Would it be different if I had fought back? Would things have changed if I had been a different person? Would life had been better?
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