Before I begin to speak my heart out, I have to say, I PASSED! :)
As much as I am so afraid and discouraged a little by the accident I passed the test today. I am glad that all went smooth and great. I am proud of myself for at least being able to do something right for the first time.
As much as my mother who was worried big time for me, I am glad at least I did not fail her. At least I did not come home being the way I was few days back. I do feel quite unhappy about the fact that my mom finds me very incapable of doing things myself. Honestly if I were to make it a big deal, I could but I choose not to because I do feel incapable. This journey of getting a licence have not been easy on me and I am not trying to brag but in spite of all those crap I was into, I am glad that Jesus was by my side. Even when I felt that all the horrible things happen to me on purpose to make my life miserable, at least Jesus put someone that I can turn to when I am in my worst. Even when my family makes fun of me for all the terrifying things that happened to me , I am still glad that at least when I go to bed at night feeling at my worst, wanting to cry myself to death of all my misery, Jesus placed people around me who could at least give me some comfort that I couldn't give myself.
I cannot speak positive to myself all the time and its a fact. Life has always been tough on me and I really hate to speak like a pathetic teenager but sometimes I do feel this way. I do feel incompetent, incapable and miserable at almost everything I do. Yet, every single time I face some bad luck, horrifying and terrible obstacles in life God always has his ways to help me. My family, friends and peers will somehow appear and either give me physical or emotional help. Although sometimes the damage is already done but I have learnt my lesson.
Believe it or not, I am actually more than thankful for all the obstacles that I have faced throughout this driving test episode. At least now, when I look back at my experience growing up, I have a story to tell. I can tell how many people were involved in my journey of being incapable to capable, incompetent to competent, very miserable to not miserable.
I have a story that is worth telling. Do you?
Before all these thinking is done, Nah, I tried my best taking pictures. :)
Love,
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As much as I am so afraid and discouraged a little by the accident I passed the test today. I am glad that all went smooth and great. I am proud of myself for at least being able to do something right for the first time.
As much as my mother who was worried big time for me, I am glad at least I did not fail her. At least I did not come home being the way I was few days back. I do feel quite unhappy about the fact that my mom finds me very incapable of doing things myself. Honestly if I were to make it a big deal, I could but I choose not to because I do feel incapable. This journey of getting a licence have not been easy on me and I am not trying to brag but in spite of all those crap I was into, I am glad that Jesus was by my side. Even when I felt that all the horrible things happen to me on purpose to make my life miserable, at least Jesus put someone that I can turn to when I am in my worst. Even when my family makes fun of me for all the terrifying things that happened to me , I am still glad that at least when I go to bed at night feeling at my worst, wanting to cry myself to death of all my misery, Jesus placed people around me who could at least give me some comfort that I couldn't give myself.
I cannot speak positive to myself all the time and its a fact. Life has always been tough on me and I really hate to speak like a pathetic teenager but sometimes I do feel this way. I do feel incompetent, incapable and miserable at almost everything I do. Yet, every single time I face some bad luck, horrifying and terrible obstacles in life God always has his ways to help me. My family, friends and peers will somehow appear and either give me physical or emotional help. Although sometimes the damage is already done but I have learnt my lesson.
Believe it or not, I am actually more than thankful for all the obstacles that I have faced throughout this driving test episode. At least now, when I look back at my experience growing up, I have a story to tell. I can tell how many people were involved in my journey of being incapable to capable, incompetent to competent, very miserable to not miserable.
I have a story that is worth telling. Do you?
Before all these thinking is done, Nah, I tried my best taking pictures. :)
Love,
Button
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