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Eyhhhh :) So fast you're 17 already? :P Hhehehe Actually huh, my fondest memory of you was the first time I turned back during class watching you smoking a fake cigarette. HAHA that just cracked me up real bad. Yeaaap. Guess that was the beginning of our so called weird ass friendship. :) Buddy, I'm so glad to have known you. All the late night skype and bugging each other to tell the truth and to come clean with each other our secrets. The bro code that we have. Hahahah which until today I still have no idea how this works. Bros before Ho's right? :P LOL Buddy, I wish you all the best in the most you do. I wish for you to always stay healthy and strong (And buff maybe?? :P ). Always stay positive and my shoulder will be here if you ever need to errm.... You know? :) I hope our friendship can last all day everyday. :) Keep up those smiles buddy! :) Hehe it was the greatest honour being friends with you and of course I would love it to continue. :P Till then, we should...

The tongue is the deadliest weapon a person have. I always believed a physical fight is never stronger than a verbal fight. This is because a bruise will eventually go away but words will never leave a person's mind. Sometimes the things that you say can be so strong that it has the power to pierce through a person's self esteem and possibly even ruin them. There are certain things that a person say that will stay in your mind for a very long time. Words can do so much to a person be it in a positive or a negative way. It can bring a person up and it can also push a person down. So, how you use your words plays an extremely important role in life. Words can be used to define a person. It can be good or also bad.  Words. Are. That. Strong. Hit a man with your fist, he remembers you for a month. Insult a man, he remembers you for a lifetime. I think you get the point. :)  Nevertheless, we often misuse our tongue to say things that we are very well aware that will hurt ...

You asked me why do I speak of money so much. What is happiness without money? There will be no happiness if there is no money. Just take a good look at me. Tell me, what am I? To you, I am an irresponsible person towards my studies, a useless person, a person who you compare to with the smart people, a person who is never better than your other daughters. That is who I am coming from your mouth. Please do not try to take away these words that you have already put into my mouth. You ask me if you were to really pay for my education would I be able to do it. Can you? Because from the beginning all I have heard from you was about the money. I hate to think this way but you're making me smaller and smaller. Am I supposed to succumb to what you have said I am or am I supposed to fight against it? Why in the world do other parents support their children even when they do not deserve it and mine can't? I'm really sorry for comparing you to other parents but you compared me with...

First, I am so sorry I didn't take a picture of the place because I was crazy overwhelmed by the people and the books. But hey, it was a great experience. I had a crazy awesome time placing books of my choice into the boxes. I'm a happy girl. :)) The place is just really HUGE but thank God the people in there were nice too. Off and on I do get an apology from people who occasionally bump into me. Actually I do bump into people as well because I'm so overwhelmed by those books all over. That was the moment I actually realised that I wasn't much of a book reader after all. There are so many books that I have not read before. Hehehe.. But I bought the awesome ones and I am going to read them all.  I think my holiday is going to be so filled with books already. :) I'm so excited for the good read! :)  But it is so unfortunate that I couldn't get my hands on The Hunger Games Trilogy. :( I wanted to read those. It was also very unfortunate because those books f...

I am very sure that recently I am beginning to feel again. To feel for someone or something. I really hate this because each time I begin to feel, I anticipate and I wait. This only happens when I am not in control of the feeling that I am feeling. I have dreams over and over about the same topic but on different settings and venues.  Right now, I am trying hard to curb this. I am in understanding that my mind does not want to but I really want to control the feelings that I am feeling. So God, Please help me. Give me control of my feelings once again.  Hehe this is just a random rant on a random day. :) I'm just frustrated thats all :) 

I still remember all those great times I had with him. :) The things we did and say together. Yes, this is my best friend. Although I do enjoy verbally disturbing him very much but deep down in my heart I also love him very much. I'd break all the bro codes just for him, I'd stay by his side on days even when his face is shinier than a mirror. I'd do anything for him if he really wants it and I know that deep down he would too. :')  I can still remember myself opening up to him even after all the unhappy moments of my life. He's my pillar and my big phat rock even when he isn't fat at all physically. Mentally he's my rock. :) Even though he doesn't talk as much as I do, he knows my thoughts. Okay, maybe its because I told him but still he knows them. He encourages and gives me the best advices (okay, not so best advice..) when I am down and about to give up. He emotionally picks me up, brushes the dust off my shoulder and tells me to continue. He...

If there's one thing that I have been ever so proud of doing, one if it will be the decision to be friends with Hoong, who is now my best friend. :) Taking time to get to know him has ever been crazy challenging for me because he is an introvert. I'm not saying I'm not. I am too, except I am a situational extrovert. When I am placed next to another introvert, I tend to step up and be an extrovert and seize the day. But on my own, I am totally an introvert. :) Hahah! He's really shy and quiet at the beginning of our friendship and for the last thing I remember I was totally agitated by his character. Not to say I am all that talkative but I just so happened to be placed in a place full of introverts. So, as usual, I'd step up and be the extrovert. I'd always be the person who begins the conversation, keeps it going and spikes up the atmosphere. It does get pretty stressful but like I said, I'd step up to be something I'm not if I have to. With my bes...

Oh yeah, oh yeah... My long waited holiday has finally arrived. WOOHOO! :P Okay okay, first things first, I apologize for no pictures because I'm lazy and I have a mad rage of movie marathon so? I deserve to be lazy for a while. :P Ngeh.. This post is short because errm I'm lazy to say more. I mean who needs to talk when they have holiday? Okay, thats a lie. The truth is, I am an introvert who doesn't like to talk much. Okay that another lie, I'm an ambivert that is more towards the introvert side. I'll explain when the mood comes. Anyways I'll go continue my movie. I'll be back. I promise you. :P Love, Button

Oh yea, I remember when exactly I fell for you. :) Okay I'm just kidding. I haven't fell for anyone these days but I did fell for Mindy Gledhill. :) I fell for her voice and for now this is the second song that I deliberately love from her. Omai.. :) It sounds really good. I guess I am slowly getting older and older because I do not enjoy loud music as much anymore. :'( Omai.. But I still love skrillex and dubstep. :P Relax.. The taste changes but the person doesn't :)  So check it out and enjoy yourself? There's no particular meaning so don't worry :)  Love, Button Ps : Mindy Gledhill's All About Your Heart is really good too. :P  Don't thank me when you fall in love with her songs too ok?? :P 

I did it. Finally I submitted Mama Wong's nags that was happening over and over again. I suggest my plans on dip dye cancelled because LOOK AT ME... T.T   I can feel my hair loss agony. Partly its because my dreams of being the girl with long hair, thin and pretty slowly crushing into pieces. -.-  Oh well, on a happier note. I am actually glad I got a haircut. At least when I wash my hair I don't need to use so much of shampoo and scrub my scalp as if there was an apocalypse on my head. At least when I brush my hair in the morning I don't have to look like I have cancer watching the amount of hair fall off my head. At least now when I hold Adam when he sleeps he doesn't hold onto my hair like a rope. Now he holds onto my shirt, which is even sweeter. :) And the best and the greatest side of this haircut is Mama Wong would stop nagging me about my hair. In fact, she's the happiest. Heh heh heh.. See what I did there?Make her spend money on me and still fee...

If you are those people who enjoy asking "Eyh, no need study ah you? " Instead of slapping you on the face and giving you a getoutofmyfaceorIkillyou face, I suggest this post is completely relevant. Especially it is during exam. There are many things I do not understand about guys but particularly I do not understand why do guys ALWAYS break up with their girlfriends on days where it so closed to exams or days where exams are going on. I don't get it, how come they didn't realise that the females are more often than not very emotional? -.-  Okay, lets just take it as we girls are considered 'muka sial' (Unlucky/face problem). Girls, I totally understand how you are feeling if you're one of them. Being trashed on the sidewalk and carrying all the hurt and broken-ness inside you. You feel as if you're the person who is at fault for feeling this way and for whatever that has happened. You will try to patch things up with him but ends up making it wors...

Yesterday was probably one of days I don't know how to explain my feelings. It was everywhere and practically ruins everything. EXCEPT, my best friend and I had the most interesting conversation ever. :) Honestly it was the sweetest and the least awkward thing ever. :) To satisfy and also to remember this forever I have decided to stress my fingers a little bit more and begin tell you what exactly happened. About a week ago, this happened. Bestie : Can you please describe me? In your way. Me : It will be long.. Are you sure? Bestie : A short simple one. Me : K, you're amazing. :)) Bestie : Thanks. Me : Why do you ask? Bestie : I donno. Just feel like it.  :P Me : Oh, k.. Tomorrow can you please wake me up and tell me to stop sleeping? Bestie : Okay, I will. Can I ask you another question? Are we just friends? Me : Haha! Why do you ask? Bestie : I donno. Cuz I get mixed feelings now and then. Me : About us? Haha hey, we wont fight la. Don't worry. :) Bestie :...

My glasses are one of the many bums I have ever met in my life. My head spins each time i wear it to look into the computer screen. Grrrr... :( Anyways, here goes for all the crazy mad day I had today. I actually have a very emotional thing to write but I have decided to keep it. :P SPM means more for now. So quick post and get it over with! :) Boo YAH! Aite, tomorrow is the exam itself. Guess I should be happy that I am one of the candidates but at the same time I am worried and scared. my heard races each time I think of getting my results with all the beautiful alphabets. :( That feeling is getting stronger and stronger.. :( No matter how, tomorrow will still be the day. I will do it and I will not worry no more. I'm getting straight into it and not thinking anymore. :) I mean, I'll think about the questions not the outcome. :P Wokay, guess I'm gonna pack up, go sleep and get up early tomorrow to get on with my art. :) Love, Button Psst, If you're tak...

Midnight oil is currently on super high demand. :) I don't have much time left. I am really not sure about the productivity of my decision for these two years staying single and putting my mind on books because when you don't have a person you do tend to get a little bit lonely BUT you also do get to have a lot of free time because your phone is constantly quiet. Okay, my phone isn't all that quiet but during these times I really do not use my time talking on the phone because there isn't anyone worthy to talk to on the phone, I got more cocky these days. :P . But those free time also often get wasted in front of the computer and my phone. I watch Vines all day and go crazy on 9Gag.  Please don't judge me. :') I'm a lonely 17 year old who does not have a boyfriend to cheer her up. All I have is 9Gag and my favourite Viners who make me laugh like a dying dog. I literally bark when it comes to QPark and KingBach's black jokes. I can really say, the bla...

I'm taking this itsy bitsy time I have in the morning to quickly brush through some updates for you. ;)) I know I have been extremely unproductive but hey, I have important things to do. :P Exams are all hail on its way like a queen. Wokay first was, I attended the SPM seminar that I have been waiting for this whole year. True and madly enough, my chemistry is good enough but my biology is pretty much insane. -.- Okay okay, I won't make your life miserable. so lets go to the photos shall we? Since its what I managed to take anyways.. :P Psst, I also borrowed some pictures from my friends. :P Free time what do girls do? Take picture loh... :))  My mom told me recently that my bestfriend looks handsomer now.. What do you think?? :P  Some funny stuff I borrowed from Kev. :) Courtesy of that amazing student. :))  Another one. :)  Second update, Evonne is leaving to Australia to study. T.T Burns me every time I say it. My lady is leaving me ...

I always wonder, what plan does God have for me? What kind of life does God have in mind for me to live? The character that I have are often known as stupid, dumb, weak and whatever you can think of that is negative. I can see my positive traits on myself but I don't see people around me noticing it. It hurts me very very much because my family including my parents consider my character as a negative trait.  Unlike my sisters, I do not like to yell, offend or make a big fuss over matters. I don't feel that all these ways solving a matter is healthy but to my family, I am considered weak, stupid and very often being stepped on the head. Or maybe a more generic way of saying, I am mentally slower than the rest of my sisters. Sometimes even I myself get confused with what they say. I actually believe what they say and agree that I am mentally slower compared to the rest of them. I am always not as good as they are. They are apparently at all times and all ways better than me. ...

Still remember when I was much younger I heard him say getting married would be something he wouldn't do. I guess today states the day his words are proven wrong. He has found someone who has changed his life and mind. :) This cousin of mine is finally happily married with his beautiful wife,Catherine. Congratulations! :) I managed to get a couple of good photos to share with you peeps. :) It was such a happy moment to see the bride and groom smiling with joy that you can see in their eyes. :) Gotta admit, my cousin looks really good on the red carpet. :) Not to forget the bride looks stunning as well. I guess most of the time the bride is always the prettiest among the rest. :) I would like to warmly congratulate them once again. :) As I was looking at their photo montage, I was a little bit taken a back by the pictures. It was actually very well done and I suggest I have to give some credit to the photographer. :) Good job. Not only were the couple looking very nicely dres...

I really love quotes by others. Partly its because they are real life experiences by people. Everyone has quotes as they live by. I love these quotes but at the same time it makes me very sad. :( This is very much because they are true. :( So I'll share one or two of them which I really like. :) #10 “There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.” ―  John Lennon #9 “People aren’t either wicked or noble. They’re like chef’s salads, with good things and bad things chopped and mixed together in a vinaigrette of confusi...

So not long ago, I made a new friend while I was hanging out with my other friends in church. There's always this early morning breakfast session at the mamak with my buddies and so called catch up with each other. When I met that guy I felt that he speaks and talks like a child going through puberty. Maybe its the environment factor, I sense myself not so used to this kind of behavior. I would feel that he is a little bit too errn childish to be a 17 year old? I said childish, not immature okay. Don't misunderstand huh.. :P So after a few times of meeting each other in the mamak,we decided to exchange numbers. I can't remember how did exchanging numbers came into the picture but it was just a care free act to do so and so I did. Since then, having breakfast on a Sunday together had been a norm because he often goes an extra mile to meet up with me and if anyone in the world knows me, I do not pick up phone calls on week ends but this genius decides to call me on Sunday m...

Speaking of this, I really had a tough time doing this post. As easy as it sounds, I have officially graduated from Assunta Secondary School and believe me, I never thought I would feel so sad when this day arrived. Never have I ever imagined myself feeling so heavy hearted to graduate. I thought I would be very excited and happy to leave, grow up and start a new journey. I don't think I can ever forget the first day I ever stepped into the school. 28th of December 2008 was my orientation day. I remember Puan Hong gave her speech on the pulpit and I was seated on the floor. I remember myself completely sunken into the tiles because it was my first time seeing a tiled school hall. I remember telling my mother "Ma, this school is so pretty. " The first day stepping into school as an Assuntarian was 3rd of January 2009. I remember trying to lip sync the school song because I had no idea what was happening. I remember stepping into 1 Anggerik 3 for the first time and was ...

I could still remember the question Puan Elizabeth asked me when I was being interviewed too be a prefect. I remember myself shaking and feeling nervous. "If you are the prefect of Assunta Secondary School, what will you do to upgrade the image of the school?" Here I am today, deinstalled from the board and proud. :) Honestly, there are so many undesired memories as well as the very memorable memories as a prefect. The times I spent as a prefect was truly a journey of madness and excitement. :) I thank God for all of that. :)  Once and Assuntarian Always an Assuntarian. :) 

Self consciousness. Is it something bad?  Actually to my opinion, I feel that it really depends on what kind of perception you are looking at. For the 17th year of my life, I have always been self conscious about myself. Be it the way I look, the way I talk or even the way I walk. There has always been this mindset of mine to hide my imperfections. Let's say if I don't like the bulge I have and I cannot get rid of it now, cover it with something that makes it look hidden or say if I am sun burnt, very quickly I would wear something that could cover the burnt areas. That is how self conscious I would be. I care about how others judge me. I care about how people view me as a person in their eyes.  The bigger the age was, the more self conscious I became. Then later someone introduced "Confidence" into the picture. Where there is a generic mould that is trendy.  Remember back in the days where being skinny was a sign of unhealthy? Now, being skinny is the tr...

My phone is slowly getting faulty and to be honest, I am more than happy to get a new phone. Its not that I do not love my current phone. Its just that the speed of the phone is getting frustrating sometimes and its really upsetting because there are many episodes when I desperately need to make a phone call and the screen freezes. Or episodes where I want to take a picture to store a memory in a photo and then it tells me "Camera Fail" and all I am left to do is say good bye to the amazing moment that has just left in a sweep of time. I love taking pictures and situations like this really frustrates me. :( Or maybe situations when I fish out my phone and find that it very hot. Even I am afraid to put it near my ear to talk to such a hot phone.Yes tell me about it.. So for now, apart from texting and making really short phone calls, my phone is practically living a very happy and peaceful life. I no longer use it to its maximum capacity prolly because I am afraid it might exp...

Today was probably one of the Sundays I would repeatedly think of over and over again until I get tired of it. :) There were so many interesting things and one more time, I feel EXTREMELY GROWN UP.. :) Which is not a bad thing :D I just felt like time passed a little bit too quickly. :) First things first, I had a terrific but amazing worship session in church. Playing the guitar is probably one of the many things I enjoy doing in church. I enjoy that form of cooperation between the assistant teachers and the children. Pfft, ASSISTANT TEACHER. Such a big name. -.- Just Kidding :)) Anyways, so it happened that Brian and I have been having breakfast almost every Sunday now. I apologize for not introducing him to you guys because we all know when the mood strikes, I make friends where ever and when ever I like. To be exact, I make friends when ever I feel comfortable. :) So he came to pick me up in my class and we headed for breakfast. On the way there we stopped by to watch a flash m...

Today, one of the most mad and crazy matter occurred in my life which have not occurred for a very long time. Prolly, I was very disturbed with it. Which brings me why I am blogging on an exam week because again, I had a mental fight with myself again. Oh, its not enough because that incident happened 2-3 minutes before my English exam begun. How wonderful right? :) If I am not mistaken, I think I have mentioned on a couple of previous posts about my mad Chemistry teacher in school who has a very strong opinion and a horrible mouth towards her students in class. Not to bad mouth her but multiple times she branded us as 'Bodoh Sombong' which means stupid but proud. I wouldn't deny that because what kind of teenager in the world wouldn't proud and stupid at the same time? That's how the cycle goes right? Stupid + Proud = Mistakes (Teenagers) Mistakes + Time = Experience (Adults) Experience + Time + Proud = Old (Elderly) Now back to my teacher, today she barg...

Before I begin to speak my heart out, I have to say, I PASSED! :) As much as I am so afraid and discouraged a little by the accident I passed the test today. I am glad that all went smooth and great. I am proud of myself for at least being able to do something right for the first time. As much as my mother who was worried big time for me, I am glad at least I did not fail her. At least I did not come home being the way I was few days back. I do feel quite unhappy about the fact that my mom finds me very incapable of doing things myself. Honestly if I were to make it a big deal, I could but I choose not to because I do feel incapable. This journey of getting a licence have not been easy on me and I am not trying to brag but in spite of all those crap I was into, I am glad that Jesus was by my side. Even when I felt that all the horrible things happen to me on purpose to make my life miserable, at least Jesus put someone that I can turn to when I am in my worst. Even when my family m...

For this week, it has been crazy for me. Somehow it felt like God was trying to play a joke on me. He is probably laughing his ass off watching me being miserable.. -.- First was the car accident incident. I drove a faulty car which lead me into running over a total of 4 dividers in the driving school itself. Am I supposed to say I practically caught everyone's attention in the driving school? I think everyone probably knows me now. "The girl who ran over dividers.." Am I supposed to also mention I am taking my driving test on Tuesday? Just perfect... I do need a miracle because if the invigilator does not fail me, he must be blind. Talk more about driving on the road AFTER the licence. I probably kill someone. This got me into thinking and I realised God was doing it on purpose maybe because he didn't want me to bribe? Or maybe he did all those just to make me a better person. Come to think of it, apart from the terrible embarrassment I got in the driving school ...