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Today's highlights are a little bit ngeh... :P So lets go in detail. :D Morning I headed for my Children's Ministry Class and the first thing when I got into the lift I met that one special boy who confessed to me years ago. I could still remember how sincere he was. I could still remember how horrible of a person I was when I made him wait until I had the courage to politely say no. How stupid was I back then to so such mean things? I bet if the situation happens again now I would have done much better. He is not a boy anymore. :) A grown up young man who looks responsible and passionate about his life. Somehow, I kind of regret a little bit for not even considering before. Hahah! Just kidding, but I am really proud of him now. It has been so long since we have met. Even though it was just a common hello, I am so proud of him. :) Such a gentleman! :D  The class went by quite smoothly as usual. I shared about myself not being selected for National Service and I am so pro...

Mama Wong,Papa Wong and my sister had breakfast together today morning. Such a wonder Saturday morning for me but as soon as the career talk came by it started all loud and serious. Papa Wong and my sister started telling me about their job as an Insurance Broker and an Insurance Agent. I wanted to know more about it because I am seeing myself stumbling away from what I truly want to do. To be a surgeon. I guess I should say I really don't want to grow up because growing up is the time where you must wake up from you dream and realise that maybe you are really not capable to do what you really want to do. Maybe you really cannot be what you dream of no matter how hard you tried. I am stressed, afraid, worried and sad. I guess that is the main reason why most adults used to tell me to enjoy my childhood as much as I can. Mama Wong told me that in her eyes all I do is use the computer, sleep and eat. Honestly that hurts me but that doesn't hurt so much anymore. I don't bl...

Coincidentally, on this Monday its not blue. In fact it is quite fun. :) Do you know why??  Cuz.... I WENT FOR DRIVING LESSONS! :DD  That is probably the biggest highlight of my Monday. Nevertheless there are still small highlights along the way today. Some were not so cool while some were just average school news? Still worth the typing. :') So I went for two hours of driving on the road with the instructor. Came home of all things, my ankle feels tired. Hahahahah! This is a very interesting experience where I get to interact with the other cars. Makes me feel very grown up. :') I know I get really anxious when I can't control the car but that is normal for every beginner right?? :P Ngek Ngek Ngek... :P  Sorry huh, I didn't take any pictures, I was too focused on the driving. Forgot to even fish out my phone to take pictures. :( Sorry.  Anyways, the instructor told me that I can do the test as soon as Raya is over. Meaning before or after Tria...

Most heart felt day of my whole life journey as a Leo. It still feels like it was just yesterday I was introduced into this warm family meeting different people with the same passion for the community. We did so many things together,got to know different people and learnt to be a leader. I still remember first year being a part of the Blind Leading the Blind. My first time going for Taman Petaling's Installation and being so afraid of the Leos. First time going for LLC, telling the cockroaches in the cupboard to stay in for the night, getting to know so many people from different schools and finding a bond between them, getting together as total strangers and build team work from there. I remember bringing children to KLCC's Aquaria to see fish.I remember going around carolling during Christmas and seeing the elderly and children so happy to see us. I remember so much and so far about Leo.  Then here I am now, leaving the Leo Club of Assunta Secondary School. Honestly I ...

Sometimes, feelings can really misjudge the way we see things. I know because I have been facing the exact same thing too and it honestly hurts just to think back and feel sorry for the things that you cannot control because sometimes feelings are so strong and misleading. If you know what I mean? :)  I remember the day where feelings just suddenly misguided me into thinking I like my best friend more than just a friend. It was tough and hurtful knowing that your best friend does not feel the same way. Its hurtful because those feelings gives you this anticipation and hope that maybe things will change and it is very hurtful to wait and wait without confirmation. Well in fact, there shouldn't be any.  Days will go by, seconds will continue to strike on the clock and one fine day you will finally have the courage to fight back your feelings and put your mind straight and accept the fact that waiting is not the best solution you can have. You move on and realise that it w...

Ngek, as promised I would write something before I crash to bed and die. Okay, maybe not die. :P  Hehehehe... But my brain is already on sleep mode so I cannot produce any good inspirational pieces so I'll just share something that I have been doing a lot lately and its benefits. :)) If you haven't heard of its benefits then today is probably your good day. For all my life I thought lemons were just merely a fruit to add flavour but actually I was wrong the whole time. :) Firstly, lemons contain 5-6% of citric acid. That is why it is so sour. :) For the last thing we know, most of the sour fruits contains high concentration of vitamin C which is very very good for your body because vitamin C is one of the boosters to fight flu and cold. With the help of lemon, say bye bye to flu and cold :P Lemons are kind of magicians if you ask me because they are acidic but once they are in your body they are are alkaline forming for body fluids. Balancing body pH will do good for ...

For today I am a blossoming happy girl! :) Why oh why? Because I have finally completed my Art Project. Wee~! :D Big and Loud Claps for me please?? :P After days of struggling trying to finish it, FINALLY! :D Yes, I'm smiling from ear to ear. :P Because that heavy load of burden is off my chest and no more nonsense! :D Now its just plain study business where I study till my brains lie around on the table like zombies just invaded them. :) I guessed I learnt A LOT of teamwork throughout this project, perhaps I should even refrain calling it a stupid project. Supposing, my penghargaan section should be super long but then since I was too lazy to do anymore work, I just wrote the regular stuff. You know the thank you's to those people who didn't physically help you at all but you acknowledge their invisible help? Oh well, guess you know who I am talking about. If you don't know then you low IQ. :P Hahaha  Kidding.. :) Well did I mention that because of this project I...

For this week, it has just been tremendously sensitive to me. Okay, perhaps last week was sensitive too. When I say sensitive, I mean me being sensitive physically and emotionally. :/ Personally I don't remember myself being so sensitive before over the years of my life. I don't understand why do I get so aggressive over small matters. I just lost my patience towards almost everything. Say someone asked me about my fats, usually being all carefree I would laugh and insult myself a little to break off the sensitive issue. I might feel offended a little bit but I'll get over it within minutes.Then all will be just smooth like a smoothie. :P Ngek... But recently I just get so aggressive defending myself from even small issues. Honestly I really hate fighting with anyone. I don't like to offend people because I feel that whatever I say might affect a person for closely a day or two. Since I don't want to be offended this way, I try not to do the same as much as I ca...

Today is a pretty messed up day for me. But I have already decided to let the good things happen to me. Stop thinking of the unhappy things and look forward to the good things. No matter how unhappy my day was today, it will come to past. Though I might not be able to forget what happened, how I felt and what I heard, I can still choose to put all of this down for peace sake, the betterment of my life and others as well. :') Let's start with some good things shall we? Today I spent my day at the art room finishing my art project. Honestly, it felt so carefree. Suddenly I kind of wished I was never in the Science Stream. If only all I want to do in future has nothing to do with science. Life would be just like them, carefree. :) Today I have learnt so many skills in art. I consider myself quite skillful now. :) Heheheheh... Early in the morning, Laaviny interviewed me for the E- Magazine about Youtube as a Career. Honestly, it felt kinda real :P Hahaha...Anyways, for all I...

I have to admit towards this part of my life, I have never questioned God in the most ridiculous day until today. In a way, I should feel ashamed but at the same time I feel shock. Never knew in the midst of all the verses in the bible, I would see these. Just the right ones that answers my questions. While today was a horrible day for me, I cried, I felt sad and I asked God Why must I succumb to people who disrespects me? (Isaiah 40 : 28-31) - Don't you know? Haven't you heard? The Lord is the everlasting God ; he created all the world. He never grows tired or weary. No one understands his thoughts. He strengthens those who are weak and tired. Even those who are young grow weak ; young men can fall exhausted.  What are your plans for me? >: ( Proverbs 3 : 1-8 ) - Don't forget what I teach you, my son. Always remember what I tell you to do. My teaching will give you a long and prosperous life. Never let go of loyalty and faithfulness. Tie them round your neck ;...

Guess the beginning of this week started out not so good I guess? First was the head mistress. She spent 45 minutes during assembly to lecture and rant about us. To cut short of her 45 minutes, she just wanted to say that we are of no good compared to others. Then she went on enforcing new school rules which has probably made everyone suffered in the most cruel ways. Luckily, we are quite resilient. :P So far the things I have heard of people saying about the Head Mistress were quite painful to hear I should say. Like the one where people call her being status minded is quite painful to accept honestly but it felt like it is true. Honestly,I don't know. I don't know how status minded she is but I do know that for the past 2 assemblies, the same old ranting with no warm and sincere compliments for her students don't feel quite right. I mean,the type of head mistress I had in mind through out my secondary school years is not like that. Then there are people who said she w...

This movie, honestly to me is a must watch for all teenagers who are slowly stepping into adulthood soon. The amount of values that is hidden and can be seen is honestly uncountable. Good job Tyler Perry, point well pointed out. This movie starts out seeing a couple being counselled by a marriage counselor. The counselor then offers to tell the woman a story. It all started from a small town where a girl named Judith grew u being raised by her mother who is a reverend of a church in their small town. Judith grew up knowing the Lord almost a huge part of her life. In that town, that was also the love story of her and Brice who later in life ends up being her husband. Soon they moved to the city to achieve their dreams. Brice being as a pharmacist while Judith as a match maker in a big company temporary before she could start her own practice as a marriage counselor. But the sorry thing was, they don't have money to do that. One day, Judith got the chance to work with a rich m...

Firstly, thousand apologies because I didn't take as many photos as expected.These days my phone feels faulty. The battery is turning bad again. -.- Haiz... I wish I have a lot of money. I could get an S4 then. So today,finally Evonne,Jasmine, Xin Yu and I can reunite together as one. :)) Honestly,I missed them so much in the most loving way. :') Grr,spending time with them was the most special thing that has happened to me today. :) Did I mention Evonne can drive already? Yes, you should all be so jealous of her. :P Ngek.. We spent so much time today eating,talking and just plain enjoying each other's company. :) Isn't that so sweet? Oh! Must not forget, that cute little cupcake in the photo was part of Joshua's birthday cup cake. Thomas and His Friends is Joshua's favourite cartoon. :) I remember myself watching the cartoon too. Time fly so fast right.. :)  There was really good food but then I was trying hard to not eat all of them. But then real f...

Welcome back! This year is probably my last year being a part of Assunta Secondary School's sports day. Honestly,I don't know if I am supposed to feel happy or sad that it has ended. I think I should be happy because finally now I can get back into focus on my exams while being afraid of my SPM trials to come along but indirectly I feel a little bit sad and maybe slightly disappointed because this is my last sports day and then after that it will not be anymore of this relationship bonding sports day. I think I feel disappointed because I just realised that I have never exactly took sports day seriously throughout my school days. -.- This year, sports day felt a lot more emotional compared to the previous years. Or maybe I should say I started to take notice of the changes because it was my last year? It felt like the Assuntarians were not as confident as they always were. But anyway,it was really a good job done by them. Take it as an example for the cheer leaders. In spite ...

Please don't laugh at me. :( This year my plans to not join anything has failed again. :(( This year I had to be involved in the marching for the Red Crescent. I think I will consider myself learning a lot from the marching. I mean yes,I did get tanner.I did get all itchy all over with my eczema prone skin but at least I have discovered a new side of myself.Something I have never thought of myself having.Something you can say a new found identity. :)) Truthfully,all the bright stuff is always accompanied with dull and upsetting stuff. :) I'll explain one by one together with the good stuff. First things first,I raised my voice to scold my marchers for the first time.It is also the first time I have raised my voice in over 2 years. I was so surprise when I raised my voice,I literally went shaking after doing so. Heheh,so it was not true that I did not inherit my mother's strong character.I do have that scary side of me.  :) Ngek ngek ngek.. :P Through this small voice ra...

So recently I have slackened in blogging some encouraging stuff for you guys to read.All I have done was just study, watch movie, do a review of it, add more pictures and sleep. I am so sorry, some small matters have been happening in my life which bothers me. With all my heart I want to blog about something positive but I can't find my inspiration to say anything encouraging. :( So recently in an English Language class, my teacher wrote down the passed year questions of the English SPM papers starting from year 1997 all the way to 2012. It was all one word essays. As far as I can remember they were Stars,Food,Friends,Cleanliness,Home and ect and our job as students in exams are always nevertheless to impress the markers. My teacher pointed out how important it was to be unique in our essay. It is all about impression writing. Uniqueness is such a harsh and scary word. Believe it or not,we are very afraid of being unique. :) For example, let's just say we meet a person with...

I don't know how to read Chinese but then this song paralyzed me right after I understand its meaning.The first time I heard this song,I thought it was very nice but as soon as took time to listen to its meaning I felt very weak and sad. Don't worry bananas,I'll tell you the meaning of the song.I'm sorry if the meaning is a little bit off,I mean I understand it that way so.. -.- 分手那天 The day that we broke up, 我看着你走远 I saw you walk away, 所有承诺化成了句点 All our promises just ended. 独自守在空荡的房间 Alone,I stay in my room  爱与痛在我心里纠缠 Love and pain all happening in my heart ** 我们的爱走到了今天 Our love came to this day, 是不是我太自私了一点 Was it I that was too selfish? 如果爱可以重来 If only love could start all over again, 我会为你放弃一切 For you,I would give up my all  [Chorus] 想你的夜 I have missed you that night 多希望你能在我身边 I wished you could be by my side 不知道你心里还能否为我改变 I don't know if deep in your heart, would you still change for me?  想你的夜 I have missed you that night  求你让我再爱你一遍 I beg for you to...