Please don't laugh at me. :( This year my plans to not join anything has failed again. :(( This year I had to be involved in the marching for the Red Crescent. I think I will consider myself learning a lot from the marching. I mean yes,I did get tanner.I did get all itchy all over with my eczema prone skin but at least I have discovered a new side of myself.Something I have never thought of myself having.Something you can say a new found identity. :))
Truthfully,all the bright stuff is always accompanied with dull and upsetting stuff. :) I'll explain one by one together with the good stuff.
First things first,I raised my voice to scold my marchers for the first time.It is also the first time I have raised my voice in over 2 years. I was so surprise when I raised my voice,I literally went shaking after doing so. Heheh,so it was not true that I did not inherit my mother's strong character.I do have that scary side of me. :) Ngek ngek ngek.. :P Through this small voice raising incident,I figured I was actually quite a good leader. For all my life, I never thought of myself as a leader,a winner or a person with luck but the funniest thing is even when I don't think so I become the leader for things.I tried hard to avoid being a leader but always fail. Due to the reason I am not firm enough,things don't go so well as expected. Through this,I figured that I am able to be firm with people and I can lead.So its good new! :) *do the happy dance*
Second thing is that, I think my level of patience has gotten way much higher than before.I feel much more mature that I was a few years back and honestly it is really a good thing. I say so because in the squad,I am not the commander.I am just the president who holds the flag and walk with the marchers. Before that I was really upset with the commander because she was giving me most of the excuses that she doesn't have to go for the practices.She made me feel that she is so irresponsible herself. She left me alone to train the marchers myself. Thank God I was able to train them and also thank God that the girls already knew how to march themselves.God is so caring.He helped me a lot in my times of needs without me knowing. :') Thank you :))
If I was the Button a few years back,I would have kicked her out and do the work all by myself.I would have struggled so bad trying to make things right and even end up being a bad leader again. :/ But then this time,I made used of her irresponsible character. Instead of pushing her away,I gave her more room to work on,indirectly forcing her to do her job.In between time I would make use of my voice, raise it, train the girls and make her feel that I am at watch of her. In feel of her job being snatched away, she would work harder.
Though I do suffer some consequences doing so.She would gang up with another two of her close friends and speak in Tamil about me. Although I don't understand what they are talking about I know its about me. No matter how,I didn't let it affect me.I kept on telling myself that it wont be long till it will all end. When I realised that they were talking to each other when they were in line during marching, I democratically changed their positions with the help of the rest of the marchers. When all agreed then it is set.
Then there is this last minute arrangement by my teacher who suddenly tells me she wants a cap for the marchers.Honestly,when I heard that I was really angry. I was angry because I don't understand why she didn't tell me earlier. I mean I was around all the time,why can't she tell me? Then she indirectly is trying to force me to travel all the way to Mid Valley to get the caps. Being considerate,I did not agree nor promise her. When I told Mama Wong, she told me that we couldn't go there. I felt slightly better when Mama Wong agreed with me that it was too last minute. :'( Still I was angry and upset because of that.
God still has his way to cheer me up. :) I went to tuition and hung out with Hoong. He is such a fun person to talk to. :)) God really placed so many different people teach and cheer me up. Guess because of Hoong and Jet,I felt so much better. :)
I have got some brighter news to share.. :) I lost 3 kilograms plain just marching. Guess that is another present that God decide to give me to cheer me up. :)) Heh heh! :))
Thats all for now I guess?Will blog later when I am feeling inspired again . :))
Love,
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Nah, Picture!
Truthfully,all the bright stuff is always accompanied with dull and upsetting stuff. :) I'll explain one by one together with the good stuff.
First things first,I raised my voice to scold my marchers for the first time.It is also the first time I have raised my voice in over 2 years. I was so surprise when I raised my voice,I literally went shaking after doing so. Heheh,so it was not true that I did not inherit my mother's strong character.I do have that scary side of me. :) Ngek ngek ngek.. :P Through this small voice raising incident,I figured I was actually quite a good leader. For all my life, I never thought of myself as a leader,a winner or a person with luck but the funniest thing is even when I don't think so I become the leader for things.I tried hard to avoid being a leader but always fail. Due to the reason I am not firm enough,things don't go so well as expected. Through this,I figured that I am able to be firm with people and I can lead.So its good new! :) *do the happy dance*
Second thing is that, I think my level of patience has gotten way much higher than before.I feel much more mature that I was a few years back and honestly it is really a good thing. I say so because in the squad,I am not the commander.I am just the president who holds the flag and walk with the marchers. Before that I was really upset with the commander because she was giving me most of the excuses that she doesn't have to go for the practices.She made me feel that she is so irresponsible herself. She left me alone to train the marchers myself. Thank God I was able to train them and also thank God that the girls already knew how to march themselves.God is so caring.He helped me a lot in my times of needs without me knowing. :') Thank you :))
If I was the Button a few years back,I would have kicked her out and do the work all by myself.I would have struggled so bad trying to make things right and even end up being a bad leader again. :/ But then this time,I made used of her irresponsible character. Instead of pushing her away,I gave her more room to work on,indirectly forcing her to do her job.In between time I would make use of my voice, raise it, train the girls and make her feel that I am at watch of her. In feel of her job being snatched away, she would work harder.
Though I do suffer some consequences doing so.She would gang up with another two of her close friends and speak in Tamil about me. Although I don't understand what they are talking about I know its about me. No matter how,I didn't let it affect me.I kept on telling myself that it wont be long till it will all end. When I realised that they were talking to each other when they were in line during marching, I democratically changed their positions with the help of the rest of the marchers. When all agreed then it is set.
Then there is this last minute arrangement by my teacher who suddenly tells me she wants a cap for the marchers.Honestly,when I heard that I was really angry. I was angry because I don't understand why she didn't tell me earlier. I mean I was around all the time,why can't she tell me? Then she indirectly is trying to force me to travel all the way to Mid Valley to get the caps. Being considerate,I did not agree nor promise her. When I told Mama Wong, she told me that we couldn't go there. I felt slightly better when Mama Wong agreed with me that it was too last minute. :'( Still I was angry and upset because of that.
God still has his way to cheer me up. :) I went to tuition and hung out with Hoong. He is such a fun person to talk to. :)) God really placed so many different people teach and cheer me up. Guess because of Hoong and Jet,I felt so much better. :)
I have got some brighter news to share.. :) I lost 3 kilograms plain just marching. Guess that is another present that God decide to give me to cheer me up. :)) Heh heh! :))
Thats all for now I guess?Will blog later when I am feeling inspired again . :))
Love,
Button
Nah, Picture!
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