Sensitivity... :)

For this week, it has just been tremendously sensitive to me. Okay, perhaps last week was sensitive too. When I say sensitive, I mean me being sensitive physically and emotionally. :/

Personally I don't remember myself being so sensitive before over the years of my life. I don't understand why do I get so aggressive over small matters. I just lost my patience towards almost everything. Say someone asked me about my fats, usually being all carefree I would laugh and insult myself a little to break off the sensitive issue. I might feel offended a little bit but I'll get over it within minutes.Then all will be just smooth like a smoothie. :P Ngek...

But recently I just get so aggressive defending myself from even small issues. Honestly I really hate fighting with anyone. I don't like to offend people because I feel that whatever I say might affect a person for closely a day or two. Since I don't want to be offended this way, I try not to do the same as much as I can. I will be patient and rise above and just let the wind pass like whatever it is supposed to be but then recently it felt like I ate many time bombs.

Say Mama Wong was nagging about me not having good time management and say I have always asked too much. Usually I would shut up and let the boss talk. Let her have her fair share of nagging until she gets tired. Let her deal with her own issues while nagging me. But recently I get so sensitive and aggressive that I actually played along with the fight and I fight back. Logically that is the right thing to do, stand up for yourself. Speak for whats right and not let anyone step on your head but since I am Asian, parents consider that as talking back. Of course Mama Wong was shock and upset. I was pissed and honestly later I felt guilty about it but because  I was so sensitive to what she said to me, I didn't apologize at all. I felt that if she cannot respect me then why should I? Later when the anger subsided, everything went back to normal. Still I did not apologize.

Then there was this stupid art project thing that is trying to kill me. I got so annoyed at the time limit that made me rush so badly. I got so pissed and upset that I actually cussed out loud. -.- Sorry... :(

Then there was this small encounter with a guy whom had suddenly attracted me in the most ridiculous manner. How stupid was I to think that he might like me too? Maybe he does maybe he doesn't but usually I am not like that. Everything is pretty chill with me but suddenly I feel myself running my thoughts over stuff we talked about. Let's be honest for a minute, what advantage do I get thinking this way? -.- I'm shoo stupid sometimes that I actually laugh at myself for my stupidity. A grown up girl thinking of some matters that does not matter.. HAHAHAHAH! :/

K, I ought to finish my stupid art project. Bye.. :)

Ps: I initially have something inspirational to write out for you peeps but then since I am so sensitive lately, I don't think I am rational enough to give out any proper advices. :/ Sorry, Promise I'll get better. :)

Before I go, Week end photos k... :) I have been lacking :P

This is the study face. Honestly I cannot get my hands off this pair of fake frames. :) So hipsterry :P 

Special thanks to Umar for my Hong Kong Disneyland Mickey. :) I used to have a much bigger one when I was much younger but now donno put where already. :/ 

Victory photo. :) Lost about 4 kilograms within 2 months.Trying to get some solid abs excluding the fats. :) Just because you are tall and big built, doesn't mean you cannot be pretty. :) I'll write a proper blog entry when I succeed. :) 

Love,

Button :)